20 Years Ago

Twenty years ago today I was a seventeen year old bride, scared to death but excited for the future. At this point exactly 20 years ago I was in a hotel with my new husband having a mental freak out because all of a sudden I wasn't supposed to be a kid anymore. We had a baby on the way and out of nowhere it slammed into me that we were now supposed to be adults and our own unit. We were expected to raise someone else. It was a lot to absorb. Even though I was worried about the future and how exactly life was going to work, I was happy because I had this person who loved me. I thought that's what happiness was supposed to look like. 

Fifteen years ago today I was in tears most of the day. The marriage this day commemorated was in trouble and I knew it. I had learned a lot in the years since "I do". I was the mother to two absolutely amazing children. Life was a struggle, but we sort of got by. I tried to count my blessings, but I was not the wife I was expected to be. My heart hurt because happiness was a concept I didn't grasp anymore. I wasn't a great mom. I was depressed and lost, all because I thought the only way to be happy was to be loved by a man, to be living some sort of fairy tale that eluded me. I knew life was not that way for me, for us, and I was miserable for so many reasons. 

I had it all wrong. 

Tonight there are a few tears as I type, not from sadness for where I am now, but from relief the person I was five years ago is long gone.Why has past me a memory and something I will never be again? It's because the power of I. 

“I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.” ~ Groucho Marx
I figured out happiness isn't about a man loving you. It's not about a big house, having all the money in the world, or raising perfect kids. Those things don't make you happy, it comes from within us. Figuring that out was a game changer for me. Guess what happened? I became someone I am proud of. I am an amazing mother. Have a job I love. Am finally going to college after years of believing it was impossible. I accomplished a dream by becoming an author. I am strong, so much stronger than I ever believed. I am smart. Funny. Kind. I am blessed with the most incredible family and friends who support and love me unconditionally. I found myself and guess what? I. Am. Happy. Life still throws curve balls. Depression still sucks. Not every day is perfect, most are far from it. Even so, I am happy. It's a life changer. So, on a day I once dreaded and viewed all about loss, I now celebrate. I am no longer a sad, scared girl. Twenty years later I am a fierce, strong, HAPPY woman. I really doesn't get better than that.

Where did January go?

I saw something on Facebook earlier about January being a practice month and February beginning the new year. It gave me a giggle, but truthfully I wouldn't mind it. There was so much I intended to accomplish in January that just didn't happen. Instead of focusing on what didn't get done, I am looking at what did happen.

This gal is now a sophomore in college! My class this last term made me crazy, but thanks to some excellent help, I manged to pass and keep moving forward! I am so excited to be living my dream of going to college. It's no cake walk, but I know it will be worth it. 

The top of my list of priorities this month was inspired by watching War Room yesterday. If you haven't seen this film yet, I highly recommend it. It left me inspired and uplifted. So, I am going to work on my pray life. I also plan to check into Bible journaling. A friend mentioned this on Facebook recently and I've been intrigued ever since. I am pinning all sorts of resources on both subjects here if you want to check them out. There are truly amazing resources and inspirations to be found on Pinterest! This is a change I should have made in my life long ago and I look forward to learning and growing along the journey.

My next course, Introduction to Film History, is high on my to do list for this month. I am excited about this one and hope it will be fun and not quite as stressful as all the numbers I've dealt with the last 8 weeks. 

I have a few other things on my goals list this month, but I'm not quite ready to share those just yet. 

Wishing you all a happy, healthy, productive February! 

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I know many people make resolutions for the new year, but this year I decided to go with goals. They aren't huge things, but goals that are positive steps toward bigger goals. Like many out there, I could definitely stand to lose a few pounds. Instead of making a resolution to lose 50 pounds or something like that. Instead, one of my goals is to eat more fresh fruits and veggies, less processed foods. Another was to move more. No, I won't be running a marathon anytime soon, but I figure any movement is better than sitting on my duff all the time. Another healthy goal is to up my water consumption. So far I am doing well with my goals. I am eating better, being more active, and drinking a gallon of water a day. I'm off to a great start! 

Sprouts Farmers Market's New Year campaign, Start Fresh with Healthy Habits is helping customer's to make small changes with a nod toward better health. They are also hosting a contest in which the winner will receive $5,000 in Sprouts gift cards! That's a sweet prize for making small lifestyle changes! 

The 21-Day Healthy Habits Challenge encourages fans/followers/customers to sign-up and commit to a healthy habit for 21 days in a row, and hopefully continuing indefinitely. 
  • Dates: 1/1 – 1/21
  • Entry form on the Sprouts Website will also feature articles and content related to healthy habits. Each day during the challenge, customers can go to the entry form to enter and let us know that they achieved their healthy habit for the day. There will be a total of 21 entries possible. 
  • Prize:  One grand prize winner will score groceries for a year, in the form of $5,000 in Sprouts gift cards.
  • Hashtag: #HabitMyWay

In addition to the entry form located on, there will also be a Facebook event for the 21-Day Healthy Habit Challenge. Subscribers to the event page will be able to view motivational content and share their own photos and inspiration with one another. 

Vendor photo challenge giveaways will also take place on the Facebook event page. Giveaways are scheduled with Organic Valley, Kashi, New Chapter, Tiesta Tea, MegaFood and Kala. They’ve got some great prizes to giveaway, including a TREK bike, yoga mats, fitness trackers and a Vitamix.

Those are some great prizes! To enter head on over to the Sprouts Website. Don't forget to check out their Facebook page for more information on Healthy Habits. Good luck with the contest!

What are your goals for the new year? 

Happy New Year!

This photo pretty much sums up every day for me since New Year's Eve. The last 24 hours have been especially rough. This sure isn't the way i wanted to usher in 2016, but I refuse to let it set the tone for the year to come. I hope all of you have had a much better new year than me so far. Once I shake whatever bug this is, I plan to take 2016 by the horns and live it to it's fullest.

Wishing you all a blessed 2016!

Goliath, Good Deeds, and Greed

“Three things in human life are important: the first is to be kind; the second is to be kind; and the third is to be kind.”  - Henry James
Winter storm Goliath brought on a first for me, a blizzard in Texas. Never have I experienced anything like the snowfall we received here in Lubbock or the aftermath of the storm.

The city and county declared a state of disaster days ago, leaving us all waiting for help and the city to slowly return to normal. During this time, the community has came together to help each other. Local groups worked to get nurses, first responders, and essential personnel to work on treacherous streets. Strangers helped free stuck vehicles, doing so not for profit, but out of the goodness of their hearts. It's been quite heart warming.

As always, bad seems to accompany the bad. In the aftermath of Goliath, there are those looking to make a quick buck off of the misfortune of others. I've read of exorbitant fees for snow plow rental, drive shoveling, and tow fees. Then there was this story on the local news that left my blood boiling.
Stories like this and others of people taking advantage of something like severe weather make me even more thankful to the kind, compassionate strangers int he world. It really isn't hard to be a kind person. To all those who have joined together as a community to help out, I offer a sincere thank you. People like you make our community great!