He Isn't A Baby Anymore

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.  She never existed before.  The woman existed, but the mother, never.  A mother is something absolutely new.  ~Rajneesh

Fifteen years ago, I began an amazing adventure. I became a mother.

It was the most amazing day. I remember every little crazy detail. Getting to the hospital, being nervous and excited all at once. The terrible moment when the baby's heartbeat dropped off the monitor. The fear of being whisked away for a c-section. Being put under thinking about nothing but the safety of our daughter. Yes, the little girl we'd prepared for. Then waking up and finding that we had a son.

Tristen. He was tiny and perfect and ours. I had never felt anything like the rush of emotion I had when they placed that precious bundle in my arms. I knew nothing about babies and was so scared to even take him home. But, home we went and I found out I could be a Mommy. Tristen changed my life for the better. I learned the meaning of unconditional love when I first looked down on that perfect little face.

He is a baby no more. He's not even a little boy. That tiny little person is a young man. He can talk all day about football, paintball, and girls. He's incredibly smart, has the best sense of humor, and an infectious laugh. His personality is a lot like his Dad's and I think he looks a lot like me. He is kind and loving and such a good person. I am more proud of him than I can ever explain. He is an remarkable young man.

Happy Birthday, Tristen. I love you so much and am so proud of the young man you have become.