Image by Vermario via FlickrLast night might be the most difficult night of my life. It was the first night of a new life, of knowing he wasn't coming back. I barely slept. Thank goodness I managed to keep it together until Ashley fell asleep. The house was so quiet and empty. She drifted off and I fell to pieces. How long is this sadness going to last? Thank goodness for Skype. I chatted with friends from all over the world until one by one we fell asleep. I did sleep off and on. It was a restless sleep. I got up and saw Ashley off to school. And I got out of bed. I didn't just lay there and cry. Even though that's all I want to do. I want to curl up in a ball and cry until I'm just empty. And I have no idea if this is a normal reaction. I just know I can't do it.
Ashley needs me. So, I'm going to keep getting up and moving forward. What else can I do?
