Music Monday - Gettin' You Home by Chris Young

Chris Young. He's just... yummy. I want a guy this crazy about me.

The Art of Burlesque

I'll admit it, I'm a fan of burlesque. It's an art that fascinates me and one I admire, as I'm the most uncoordinated person on the face of the earth. In my mind it is truly about the tease element of striptease and is far removed from what most would consider exotic dancing. You won't find a burlesque dancer crawling across the floor to a pounding beat leaving nothing to the imagination. Burlesque is all about the costumes, the dancing, the art of seduction.

I have been fascinated my burlesque for as long as I can remember. I recall growing up hearing stories of Candy Barr, a legendary Texan and infamous burlesque dancer. I don't know much about her, but she must have been it back in the day. When I think of who would be the "it girl" of burlesque these days, there is no choice other than the incomparable Dita Von Teese. The woman is amazing.

I was thrilled to find the book Dita Stripteese on EdenFantasys. It's actually a really nice set of three small flip books capturing a total of six of her burlesque routines. I have never seen anything quite like this set. I think the idea of a burlesque routine flip book is genius. This lovely book set would be a great gift for any Dita Von Teese or burlesque fan. I'm thinking this is a great gift for the hard to buy for men in your life.




Disclosure: I was provided with a gift card in exchange for this post. The opinions expressed here are 100% my own and were not edited in any way.

Things I'm Discovering

Other than the obvious reasons divorce sucks, I discover new things everyday. Like today, I finally got to speak to my son after a month of not hearing from him. I cannot explain how it made my heart swell just hearing his voice. But, it was the things I heard in the background that had me in tears the minute the call ended.

When a couple splits, you lose more than your spouse. You lose a whole family. For 15 years these people were my family. I love them, all of them. How do you just turn that off? How do you wrap your mind around the fact that your husband was posting on Facebook about his plans to leave you (true story, shows how often I check Facebook) and they were cheering him on. I'm not just losing my husband, but parents, grandparents, sisters, a brother, a niece and nephews. All of whom are dear to me. It hurts more than I can explain and I don't know how you just let go of people who are important to you.

Honestly, I've never felt more alone in my life. I know some of y'all have been in my shoes... does it get better? How do you get through losing a whole family?

We Are Okay

So, here we are, almost three weeks later. I've gotten quite a few emails from concerned readers and updating here just seemed easier. Some days are fine, others are terrible. We married when I was 17. I've never been alone before. Ashley and I are doing fine, mostly. When she's asleep it is so quiet, painfully so. I can't sleep in our bed, I don't even like being in our bedroom. I don't know how to deal with the hurt, I just don't.

But, the up side is, we are okay. Thank you all so much for the emails of concern. They mean more than you will ever know. We are taking things one day at a time. That's all I know to do.

Music Monday - Wrong Baby Wrong by Martina McBride

My amazing friend Angie suggested today's song. We are going through similar situations and are trying our best to help each other through it. I loves her! This song reminds me it will get better.